Surrendering to Receive God's Best for Me
Christopher, 2nd Congregation
Christopher
I’m from 2nd Congregation and this is my testimony of how God has saved me.
From a young age I was taught by my parents to read the bible and learn memory verses and even though I may not have fully understood everything, I knew two things for certain. God loved me and wanted what was best for me.
However, as I got older there were changes that happened like moving countries, changing schools and doing worse than I expected for certain major exams that made me start to doubt that God knew what was best for me. Year by year I focused less on God and based more of my identity and sense of self-worth in studies, games and friendships. I believed that if I was in control of my life, I’d be happier because I thought no one knew about my life better than I did. I was blind to the reality of my sin and didn’t think I was wrong in any way.
As God opened my eyes, he helped me see that I was hurting the people closest to me, before I thought they were overreacting and that it was their fault, but slowly I saw that it was the words I said and the things I did that was hurting others. Along with important people in my life, like family and close friends, these helped me to realise that at the heart of the problem was my sin and that I needed to get my relationship right with God.
God helped me realise the blessings he had given me and drew me closer to himself through reading his Word. When I went astray God would pursue me and help me get back on course. Though temptations were strong, he was always there to guide me in the right direction.
Through his grace I have realised that I don’t need to be in control of everything and that in him is everything I need. He has shown me that I don’t have to lie or cover up things that I’m doing in order to get ahead or get what I want because he has a plan for me and my life.
Even though I still struggle with sin and brokenness, I know that God is with me, and that he will guide me through the ups and downs of life. I’m in no way perfect or anything near it, but I know from Deuteronomy 31:6, that he will never leave me nor forsake me and that I can depend on him for the rest of my life and that he will be there to pick me up when I fall. I now once again say with conviction that Jesus Christ is my Lord and Saviour and that he loves me and wants what is best for me.